My last post was exactly one year ago. While it has been quite a year, the reflection required, the effort required to begin again and navigate the changes that this year has brought, I felt compelled to take a look back and not only give this blog a proper ending, but wrap it up at…… Continue reading What is it that you have learned my dear?
“You don’t understand your power, your influence.” The tears were streaming down my face, I was in a seated fetal position and I was choking back sobs as I heard these words. This was not the first time I had heard these words and while my tears may have been coming from a place of…… Continue reading Dimming our Light…
I saw my last patient last week. My last patient in 20 years of service as a nurse. This individual made an appointment for vague symptoms, didn’t appear ill and when bluntly asked what was needed, stated a note in order to skip a mid-term. Knowing that this would be my last patient, I felt…… Continue reading Closing Time…
It’s a common phrase said to those going through loss….”give yourself time to grieve.” It’s a lovely idea, but the process of grieving itself is a difficult concept to actualize on a day-to-day basis. You will be surrounded by love and comfort initially after loss, but eventually life goes on, the day to day takes…… Continue reading Why I Delayed Grieving….
It’s been almost two weeks since my last post, but for good reason. My beautiful mom was here for a week-long visit and in finding the balance of my daily responsibilities to others and myself, the rest of my time was prioritized as being truly present with and for her. My mom is young, all of 63,…… Continue reading The Warrior Within….
I heard a term today that rocked me to my core. I am living life half-open. I cannot take credit for this term, but when I heard the words, I would’ve rather been hit by a bullet. I have felt that over the last 2 years I have taken a leap to live life fully, for myself,…… Continue reading Catch & Release….Being OK with the Flow
There is an inside joke about yoga. “Hi, I’m Cara and yoga ruined my life.” You laugh, but it’s the truth. You start out looking for a way to de-stress and let go of all the crap that builds up day after day and then all of a sudden, it penetrates every fiber and molecule of…… Continue reading Yes, Yoga Changed Me
I remember having an interaction with one of the surgeons about 2 weeks from my last full-time day at my former hospital. He caught me in the hallway while scrubbing for surgery and started to ask me a variety of questions. This surgeon would speak to me, but my interactions with the surgeons were pretty…… Continue reading Seeking Stability….
So if you are still reading and following, I am so glad. You are definitely not alone and you can definitely start a new path for yourself. Being in the vicious cycle of productivity, burnout and beginning again is EXHAUSTING. I think we all know this on some level, but many people day after day…… Continue reading Where Do I Begin?
Fun fact….I share a birthday with Nelson Mandela. When I found this out it was an a-ha moment. I mean, here was a man who stood for something, had PASSION. Why didn’t I feel that way about anything? I mean, I guess I defined myself as passionate, fiery, but didn’t feel true passion about much.…… Continue reading How Did I Get Here? Part III